Miss J

Friday, October 10, 2008

From mindful musings
edited; 10oct'08 - 11.13pm

so heres the deal, i do not really hate perth like hate-hate, in fact i think we share a love-hate relationship. i have decided to do a list. a list of what i hate and perhaps love, about perth.

lets start with 'why i hate perth' - random things that comes into my mind so they are probably not in order.
- Michele Ng

Michele tagged me on to do this list on why I hate Perth or things i hate in Perth and things I like in Perth.

Tonight, at 11.24 pm, M is sitting right beside me, watching Southpark, and that's what we used to do in Singapore. We always watch South Park together, and...tml I would not be able to. Now, more reason to do so. :D

Before I get all emo and disgutstingly mushy, let me do the list. :D

Things I hate in Perth
1.This place is fuckin boring
2.Everything is fucking expensive. One curry puff cost $1.70
3.CURRY PUFFS ARE LIMITED HERE
4.Food here is pathetic. Chips, Fish, burgers. Get fat now.
5.Chinese food is horrible here.
6.The chinese restaurant menu is THE SAME, EVERY WHERE.
7.The internet system here fucking stink. It takes like forever to load ass.
8.Transport here sucks. You can wait up to half an hour for a fucking bus. GOD.
9.If you are asian, chances of lemons being thrown at you is there. Singapore? NO WAY. NO ONE WANTS TO THROW LEMONS AWAY. WASTE MONEY CAN.
10.Shopping here is damn pathetic. (except harbourt town_
11.Then again, their "ORCHARD" is pathetic.
12.What kinda retarded place has shop closing at 5pm? COME ON! Are you peeps that lazy?
13.The weather is freaking unpredictable. No point planning what clothes to wear.
14.The phone connection here is TERRIBLE
15.why do mobile phone numbers have 10 digits! SHEESH!?
16.There's no MAHJONG DEN HERE.
17.OH YARH, THE POLICE IS FUCKING RACIST AND BIASED HERE. I HAVE ALOT OF EVIDENCE.
18.There's no Tanya, no Melvyn, no Rah, No Yum, no Blessann, no Denise, No Drinking gang.
19.The ATM here is horrible. You're limited to the number of times you withdraw. WTF
20.Have i mentioned that curry puffs here and horrible tasting?
21.They have no hang out places after 7pm. COME ON...its no wonder pple are alcoholic here.Nothing to do, DRINK.
22.Clubbing here is ...relatively sad as well. I miss Clarke Quay
23.The japanese food here, is kinda sad.
24.They dont have CHANWANMUSHI CAN!?!??!?! KNN.
25.WHO SEPERATES THE TOILET BOWL FROM THE SHOWERS?! What if you need to shit, halfway while you're bathing!? HAVE THEY THOUGHT OF THAT?
26.The bra cups here are huge. None for me
27.The ang mohs can pull of anything, and so the clothes here are kinda lian-ish. So no point buyin and looking like a complete lianzy when I go back.
28.Limited make out places. I think...
29.Terrestial TV programmes SUCKS ASS.
30.No mama shops around
31.No upper thomson to hang out at
32.No proper drinking places to go to
33.Everything looks the fucking same. they really need interior designers. I swear.
34.People speak really slow here. LIKE SHEESH, SPEED IT UP MAN.
35.Lecturers are like....totally lepak.They just go on holidays during the term.WTF
36.ITS REALLY BORING HERE
37.IM DYING
38.AND RUNNING OUT OF THINGS TO SAY
39.SO BEAR WITH ME AS I TRY TO HIT...
40.So I conclude i Hate Perth.

On the other hand. why I like perth?

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1. I guess I have a car here? transporation isn't that bad.
2. Wine is cheap...whatever.
3. Chocolates are ....interesting?
4. Ah fuck I hate perth and that's final. sheesh.

Now for the disgusting Emo part aye. :))

I've really became really accustomed to M being around me for the past one month, and seeing him go tml would bring so much tears into my eyes, nose, mouth, ears, and stomach, liver, kidney and whatever internal organs I have. My tear ducts would be working their ass off tml. It seems as though the 25 of July has began again, the night before I left for Perth.

It's horrible knowing that I'm going to be alone agian (of course I still have mich and all) but, it's just M is so close to home and his presence just makes me feel so much at home, and comfortable.

I admit on the 2nd week onwards, i kinda disregard and took him for granted, thinking I would still have 3 more weeks, 2 more weeks, at least a week with him. But now its down to only a night away to him being so far again.It's hard knowing that he's back in Singapore .. and the cycle would repeat again. The constant skyping, the phone calls, the sms-es and what other nonsense. it's just hard letting go.

Everytime I am working on my laptop, doing something, each time I turn, I see him either stoning, sleeping or irrtating me. From tml onwards, I would not be able to see him sitting there, or feel him irrtating me. Every word he says now, seems to linger in my mind, as i try to make an impression in my mind, so that when he leaves, I can make myself feel, as though he's stil beside me somehow. Somehow, everything he says, make me laugh, and he seems to be the only one who knows what I'm thinking about without asking.

The way he sorts out his smarties, the way he packs the room, the way the nags about me and my messy antics and even the way he nags about the car, gathers tears in my eyes, because I know, it would be 3 weeks till I'll be able to feel that way again. 3weeks is short I know, I admit I suffer from seperation anxiety.

This change from knowing he's just right beside, to a long distant phone call away, is tearing me apart. I just can't bear the fact that he's gonna be away from me. OK I KNOW, 3 WEEKS, LIKE GET A LIFE, SHEESH.

But this is how I really feel, and somehow, his presence around me for 1 month and a week, has made me realise how much I really care and feel for this boy. I'm certain and assured about the way I feel about him.

To M; Stupid boy, now you're sorting out your smarties and claimin that smarties are for smart people and all. it just makes me sadder knowing that you'll be gone. You have tried to stop me from crying the past few days, I'm sorry I'm not that strong to hold back my tears, because it's so hard for me to stop crying right now. I'll miss the way you nag at me, the way you sit beside me, giving me moral support when I'm doing my work. I'll miss the way you sit beside me in the car singing along to stupid songs and doing your stupid dance moves to make me laugh. The way you refuse to do the dishes (sometimes), the times we go out to the backyard to hang, your habit of making fun of all the films I'm made to watch in school, the times we just sit and watch movies together, times you drive me to school and every single moment spent with you, I will miss it so much. I can't wait to go back in 3 weeks, to relive whatever we have created. I'll miss you so much love, I'll be back soon..I will be strong..I will. I'm sorry for crying the past few nights. I'm sorry I made you mad, I'm sorry for not understanding you sometimes...I'm sorry. I will miss you M, and remember..I love you!! :D